ugh

So, as i said before, i don't want my h to find out that i'm leaving because he can really hold up the divorce if he wants to.  so, i can't give notice at the gym i work at because he goes there and i don't want anyone to say anything to him.  you can tell people all you want to keep things to themselves, but you know that never happens.  so, i have to act like i haven't gotten the job yet.  people keep asking me and i HATE lying.  i feel like a piece of crap.

i'm not taking a moving van or u-haul or anything, i'm basically ditching all my furniture and just taking my clothes.  part of the problem is my h wants some of the stuff that's in the apt, and i can't tell him i'm leaving so he should come and get it, so that is all up in the air.

this is getting more stressful than i thought it would.

whoa it's been ages

almost a month since i updated???  really??

things are ok....i got the job in san diego :) so i'm going to be moving out there in a few weeks.  i'm trying to wrap up the paperwork for the divorce, but my H isn't being very cooperative (shocker!!).  he doesn't know i'm moving yet, my attorney is hoping that he'll sign off before i tell him, if he knows i need to move he can really make things difficult for me.

i'm freaking out about the move, i have no idea how i'm going to swing this.