friday night

i'm so tired.  these 5:30am to midnight days are killing me.

didn't have my first food until 2pm today....i think i'm going to pick more days and see just how long i can go.

food was about 1400.  went to the gym, lifted and did exercises.  the baseball game got rained out :(

zion

just read your post zion, sorry you're having such a hard time with the dealership :( i hate to sound sexist, but can your husband or dad or guy friend help you deal with them?  it's awful and it shouldn't be this way, but in my experience they will give you less of a hard time if they're dealing with a guy.

good for you for getting on the treadmill even though you felt like crap :)

thursday

food:

yogurt: 140
granola bars: 190
cereal with soy milk - 350
lean cuisine - 290
5 starbursts - 140

1110.  i feel like i eat the same 5 or 6 foods every day, lol.

body's hurting from yesterday, but managed to do the book lift and the leg lifts.

wednesday

boot camp this morning KILLED me.  ridiculous how much sweat poured out of me, and i've been dragging all day.

food:

protein shake: 250
oatmeal: 320
soup: 200
turkey sandwich: 350
cookie: 350
chicken breast and potatoes: 500

1970.  WAY too much.  i think i thought more food would give me more energy.  i was so wrong, LOL.

exhausted

i'm tired too zion, i tried to leave a comment but the comments feature hates me again.

food:

yogurt: 140
pad thai: 500
apple: 80
granola bars: 190
oatmeal: 320

1230 total.  my triceps are killing me from boot camp yesterday, tomorrow AM should be interesting.  didn't get quite all my water in today....will try better tomorrow.

i've got a cold, ugh.

Monday

i'm going to end up with hundreds of blog entries that only have the days of the week as names, LOL.

food:
oatmeal: 300
lean cuisine: 290
yogurt: 140
piece of pizza: 300
lean pocket: 250

1280 total.  boot camp at 6am, taught class at 6:30pm, and did our daily exercises.  am beat.

sunday

today was a little better...i think it was just the buildup of stress over my first month at the new job, the gym hassling me, i didn't get paid on time, feeling fat, etc etc etc.  i had coffee with a friend after the gym and just started bawling in the middle of Panera, and pretty much went that way all day.  but today was better.  i got some new eyeshadow, that helped. :)

food:
oatmeal - 200
yogurt - 140
golean crunch cereal w soymilk - 300
shrimp and rice - 400
junior mints - 250

1290 total.  wall sits, leg circles, taught dance class.

daily exercises for the week: 

60 second book lift - extend your arms straight in front of you like you're a zombie, with a hardcover book resting on your hands and hold for 60 seconds.  Try to do two sets, if it's too easy get a heavier book.

lying down - 3 sets of 30 leg lifts on each side

extra challenge for the week:

two large water bottles of water a day (about 1.5 liters)
no eating after 8pm, no matter what

saturday

i've had quite an emotional day.  i think i'm coming down with something which doesn't help.

i did a pilates class and exercises this morning, and lifted upper body weights.  had a bowl of soup today, 200 calories maybe?

the gym

i gave two weeks notice at the front desk of the gym.  after i finished, they have called me to cover the front desk every weekend.  the day before, the morning before.  i just want to tell them to stop calling me and HIRE NEW PEOPLE.  i said i have plans.  they asked me again, as if they hadn't heard my first response.  they are the ones who are up a creek and have no staff, but because I won't drop everything and help them i'm a bad person.  it's getting to where i don't want to go to the gym because i don't want to deal with the guilt trips.

food:
 yogurt
lean pocket
apple
cheese
chili w bread
ice cream

i'd say about 1500....wall sits and leg circles...am going to the gym in the am, 7a, yoga/pilates class.

people suck.

thursday

i stopped back at the Y and signed up for the rest of the boot camp session.  six weeks, hopefully i'll see some positive changes.

food:

slice of cheese pizza: 400
yogurt: 140
celery: 40
apple: 80
lean cuisine: 300

960 total.

wall sit and leg circles, check!

boot camp

i actually have four guinea pigs :) i love them, they are my babies.

boot camp was ok, it was pretty hard, but doable.  i kind of expected it would be so-hard-you're-gonna-puke hard, and it wasn't.  but i still sweat plenty and we'll see how my muscles feel tomorrow night...it's funny, as i've gotten older my soreness gets more and more delayed.

i need to get better about not grazing at my desk...i get frustrated and want to take a break and the only way i feel justified in taking a break is eating.  i'm eating low cal stuff but it still adds up...i'm not hungry i just want to stop working for a few minutes.

food:

oatmeal 240
smart one pasta 250
yogurt 140
apple 80
string cheese 80
chicken breast and mashed potato 500
pita chips 140
celery 45

1475 total....too high.  did the exercises too, though i couldn't hold the wall sit for very long.

tuesday

ugh i'm exhausted...i feel like days are just getting longer and longer.  i was at work from 7:30am til 5:15, i went to my CPR recertification from 5:30pm - 7:30pm, and then had to go to the grocery store because i was out of treats for my guinea pigs (and they don't tolerate going without, LOL!)  i came home, let them out, took care of the dishes and laundry that's been sitting for two days, and here it is 10pm and i'm finally "done."

i agreed to go with my friend to a boot camp class in the morning.  at 6am.  i may have lost my mind.

food:

apple: 80
yogurt: 140
granola bars: 190
turkey sandwich: 300
chicken breast and broccoli - 450

1160 total.  wall sit and leg circles - those leg circles are HARD, holy cow!

the 19th

ugh my stomach hurts...i honestly think it's from all the apples i've been eating, too much fiber can be a bad thing, LOL.

food:
granola bars: 190
pita chips and hummus: 200
apple: 80
string cheese: 80
PB sandwich with high protein bread: 450
lean cuisine shrimp alfredo: 210

1210 total.  Taught a class tonight and did the wall sit and leg circles, i also did some pushups.

i'm going to DC to see a couple friends from college, i haven't seen them in a couple years.  they are always so fashionable, i want to look good too!

sunday

taught my class this morning, OMG i'm so sore still.  i met up with a friend today that i hadn't seen in awhile and she and her son wanted to go apple picking, so i went again, LOL.  i don't mind though, i look forward to it all year.

food: 

yogurt and granola: 250
apple: 80
slice cheese pizza: 300
oatmeal: 240
 870 total

i leave for DC in just under three weeks.  ten more pounds by then.

zion, your turn to pick the exercises for the week!

Saturday

Today was a good day.  Did two classes at the gym, exercises, then went apple picking.  My body is really sore from yesterday and today's workout...I have to teach in the morning and it's going to be tough!

Food:

egg, cheese, and ham on wheat toast: 340
roast and mashed potatoes: 450
three apples: 240
yogurt: 140

1170 total.

quickie

i'm going to try and get up early for Pilates in the morning, so i'm on my way to bed and this will be quick...i went to lunch today and completely blew it :(  my dad took me to my favorite mexican place and i just couldn't say no.  so, calories for the day are eight billion.  i did go to the gym and lift and did about 30 minutes on the arc trainer.

i'm planning on pilates and step tomorrow and under 1000 cals.  i hope i hope i hope.

thurs

when i refuse to be weighed, they just look at me and ask me why not...i just say i don't want to be weighed.  the office is usually so busy they just let it go and move on.

coffee
yogurt
salad with grilled chicken
tomato and mozz salad
veggies

dips and plank

i haven't been to an AA meeting in three weeks...i'm going tonight, i've been thinking about drinking a lot.  i think it's because of all the stress i'm under with the new job.  the job is ok, i'm just putting a lot of pressure on myself to excel and it's starting to break me down a bit.

wednesday

ugh....my arms are so sore after yesterdays lifting.  i couldn't hold myself up for the dips :(  i must have overdid it, by a lot.  did the plank, but that sucked too.

so i went to the doc's - my appointment was for noon, it got to be 1pm and i still hadn't been seen yet.  My doc was running so far behind that they actually came to me and asked me to reschedule!! i couldn't believe it....but at that time i was so frustrated about waiting and worried about missing work so i just said fuck it and agreed.  so i've postponed the weighin....which is good.  i may just refuse to be weighed anyway (which is what i've been doing in previous visits).  i thought i was brave enough to do it this time but the false start has me weirded out a bit.

food:

granola bar: 180
yogurt: 140
bean burrito: 350
raw almonds: 120
small ice cream cone: 130

920 total.

beat

about 1150 in calories, i think i want to start aiming for a lower number.

went to the gym, did the exercises and lifted more on upper body.  i'll bet i won't be able to lift my arms tomorrow.

i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow.  i have to go for a pap smear or she won't refill my birth control.  i'm going to have to get on a scale.  no other human being has known my weight for two years.  this is really freaking me out.

monday

Food:

tomato and mozzerella salad: 150
bean burrito with light sour cream: 350
pork tenderloin with potatoes: 400
PB sandwich w/ high protein bread: 350

1250 total.  Taught a class today and did the 60 second plank and tricep dips.

week 2

i'm only down 1.5 pounds from last Monday.  WTF?!?!?

ugh.

anyway, food:

popchips: 140
oatmeal: 140
cereal and soy milk: 250
chicken breast with potatoes: 500
small ice cream cone: 130

1160 total.

For daily exercise. how about a 60 second plank and 3 sets of 10 tricep dips off a chair?  Plus whatever else we can fit in.

saturday

still a little sore from thursday, but better.  i went to the gym this morning and took a class, that helped work out some of the soreness, i think.  did my pushups and crunches too!

food:

oatmeal: 150
high protein bagel w pb: 300
pulled pork and snow peas:  500
yogurt: 140
small ice cream cone: 130

1320 total....a little high, but i also covered a desk shift at the gym so i was on my feet for four hours.

friday

i'm so sore from just the 20 minutes i did on the treadmill yesterday!  and it's getting worse as the day goes on, probably won't be able to walk tomorrow, LOL  getting old sucks.  but still did my pushups and crunches :)

food:

cereal with soy milk 350
string cheese 80
yogurt 140
chicken sandwich  450

1020 total.  i'm beat!

damn blogger

i don't know why blogger is not letting me comment on blogs.  It keeps telling me I don't have access!  But I can READ the blog, I just can't comment.  WTF??!

Sorry, Zion, you did great today!  And your new layout is pretty!

food:

tomato/mozzerella salad: 200
apple: 60
slice cheese: 80
PB sandwich with high protein bread: 350
small serving risotto: 300
popchips: 140

1130 for the day...was able to get to the gym, did my pushups and crunches, 20 min on the treadill and lifted for 20 min.

i'm not really having a formal orientation, it's just a question of getting the hang of the work.  i feel like i'll eventually be able to work faster but just now i'm soooooo slow.

9/7

Zion- for some reason I can't leave a comment on your page, but you did great yesterday! :)

Today:

Food-

celery sticks - 20
strawberries - 60
small piece lasagna - 300
peanut butter sandwich with high protein bread - 450
small serving risotto - 300

Total 1130

Crunches and pushups done!

Long day today...worked from 7:30am to 7pm...it takes so much energy to concentrate for that long!!  i just feel like i'm working so slowly...i hate the learning curve.

today

Food:

celery sticks - 25
strawberries - 45
greek yogurt - 140
small serving lasagna - 300
chicken breast - 300
green beans - 100
tomato & mozzarella salad - 300

1210 total...pushups and crunches done!  Feeling good, a little hungry but that's to be expected after the overeating I did this weekend.  Gotta shrink the stomach down...

tomorrow

back on track :)

phew

i made it through my first day!  i have my first assignment and i am so worried about screwing it up.  please, please, please don't screw up!  i had to walk around with the perma-smile because i was meeting new people all over the place and now my face hurts, lol!

at least i was so busy today i hardly had time to eat...it gave me a headache though and it was hard to focus when it got to be around 4pm...and then i was so hungry i came home and binged instead of working out.  i need to plan ahead a little better.

Day two tomorrow!