my MIL has left after a three week visit. praise be, she's gone. i already feel my anxiety level falling. the last week i've been fighting back tears and now i just feel relieved, like a weight has been lifted. she's a nice lady, but three weeks of an extra person in an apartment that's really only big enough for one person is tooooo much. especially when you're someone like me who needs a lot of alone time and personal space.
i told my h that i need at least a year before her next visit. she was here three times in the last year, each time for three weeks. enough is enough.
i'm having a really hard time getting back on track and it's driving me nuts. i would give anything to be one of those people that can't eat when she's stressed...i'm just the opposite, when i'm feeling stressed and overwhelmed i want to mow down everything in sight, anything, just to not feel the anxiety...which of course leads to purging which leads to more awful feelings....sigh. strict restriction is the only way for me to stay out of the b/p cycle but it's so hard when i'm this stressed!! purging nonstop will only make it worse...i just need a couple under-250 days and i'll be good as new.
tomorrow:
teach in the morning - burn 550
coffee/sfrb
one lean cuisine
Well, that's good she's gone. :) In the nicest way possible.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, gorgeous.
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I often only have coffee/water and a lean cusine for the day too :)
ReplyDeleteThe stress eating thing is awful, I know. It sounds cliche but you should try meditation, it really works. You learn to really enjoy your body being empty.